Andrew would turn 7 today

I was feeling so sad all March, but today for some reason I feel better. He was a most wonderful and beautiful person I ever knew, my biggest love. He taught me that love never dies. Happy Birthday, baby.

I just started art exercisers last Summer and already feel like my creations are living their own life. I look to the portrait below and feel like it is having its own soul and a character, even though it doesn't look like an original... Also I feel an unexplainable sadness. Because people I use to love don't see me now, don't see my creations, don't see the evolution of my soul...

I tried to do that portrait several times. Initially I was using charcoal, but it didn't seem to work - lines were too thick. But this one I like. Actually I'm still searching for a good medium I can use for portraits. So far only plain pencil works.